Stealthy Stories

[RealityBreakGirl]

I always wanted to do a songfic with this song, but couldn’t figure out what. I thought about doing a SAINW fic, but there are a million of them like mine would be, and I wanted to do something different. Then it hit me, and I came up with this. This is based off the 100th episode “Adventures in Turtle Sitting” I hope you like it!

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Beauty From Pain

By: RealityBreakGirl



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Disclaimer: I do not own the turtles, nor the song Beauty from Pain, even though I love both. They belong to Mirage Studios/Peter Laired and Superchic[k] respectively. But, man do I love them both! ; )

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The lights go out all around me

Pain. Why was there such pain?
It hurt him. In his leg, up into his torso and arms, in his head. Everything seemed to be changing, everything was different. What was happening? Why were things changing? Why was there such pain?

One last candle to keep out the night

Part of his mind realized that whatever was happening, it had to be happening to him, and not to his environment. He latched on to that one thought as if it was a lifeline, hoping to use it to be able to get through this. But he couldn’t do it alone, his thought was failing him for the first time, and he called, called out to April, his last and closest hope. He asked her to help him, but even through the surrounding chaos that was engulfing him, he could still hear her gasp. Using what felt like his last control, he pushed her away, running.

And then the darkness surrounds me

He wasn’t sure what happened next. Everything was so distorted, nothing was right. His mind. It was like he wasn’t able to access most of it, like something had taken over….

I know I’m alive
But I feel like I’ve died

….like he wasn’t even there anymore, like he had disappeared from himself, from his brothers. The only indications he had that he was still with them somewhat was the occasional, thought, feeling, touch, whatever-it-was, that was from his master, his sensei, his father, and vague impressions of his brothers.

And all that’s left is to accept that it’s over

Every once in a while, when whatever had taken him over seemed to be asleep, it was as if sounds would come to him, almost like it was through the subconscious. They were hard to decipher, and it took a while, but he managed to hear enough to know that this time, there was no way out. That this time…it really was over, at least for him, and possibly the rest of them as well.

My dreams ran like sand through fists that I made

He thought of everything he has wanted to do, everything he had wanted to accomplish, all the things in life that he wanted to try, and knew that no matter how hard he wished, they were all gone now. All of them. Even the ones he couldn’t remember, which were becoming more and more.

I try to keep warm but I just grow colder

He tried to hold on to those dreams, to his memories, his thoughts, to everything that made him more then the pet shop turtle he had started out to be.

I feel like I’m slipping away

But it was starting to elude him. He couldn’t recall things. His memories, thoughts, dreams, everything that made him, him, was starting to be overtaken and discarded by this beast, this new form.

After all this has passed

They had gotten out of situations before. He would come out of this one…right?

I still will remain

He would still be here…wouldn’t he? Or would this take him completely over, like it was doing now?

After I’ve cried my last

He couldn’t think that way, or the emotions would overwhelmed him completely

There’ll be beauty from pain

He’d come back to them. He had to.

Thought it won’t be today

It might take a while, but he’d come out of this….right?

Someday I’ll hope again

Then he could start work on all of his stuff again, all of his projects and ideas.

And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

He family would get him out of this….they had to!

My whole world is the pain inside me

There was pain. More pain. As if he, it, whatever, was becoming stronger, and more insistent on what it wanted. It was starting to get to the point where the little remnant of what of his original personality remain was almost consumed totally by the pain.

The best I can do is just get through the day

Still, he held on. He knew there was no way to change what had already happened, because it took all he could do to hold on to what he had left. It was precious little.

When life before is only a memory

All he had left now were memories of being something that he could never return to. Ever. All of that was gone, and this was his new existence. Memories were all that were left of that life.

I wonder why God lets me walk through this place

He bitterly had to wonder why. Why did it have to happen to them? Why with everything they’ve been through, with all that they have done for the greater good, why did this happen to them, to him? If there really was a God up there, why did he let thing happen to him?

And though I can’t understand why this happened

It didn’t make any sense to him. He couldn’t think. Why had this happened? What had happened? He knew that if he were only himself, he would be able to figure it out, but now? Now there was chaos, now he couldn’t think. Now he was having trouble understanding. He knew he brothers, his family was understanding, and trying to help him, but he just couldn’t understand how this had happened to him.

I know that I will when I look back someday

If he managed to get out of this, he resolved to keep it from happening to his brothers, or his Master.

And see how you’ve brought beauty from ashes

That’s the only good thing he could see coming from this Perhaps someone would be able to stop this from happening to his family

And made me as gold purified through these flames

He had read once that what didn’t kill you made you stronger. If that was true, then he sound be head and shoulders above his brothers in strength if this ever ended.

After all this has passed

He heard his brothers. He felt himself being moved. They said they were doing something. They were going to help him somehow.

I still will remain

“Quickly” was his only thought, for he wanted them to cure him while he still remained. He was still slipping away.

After I’ve cried my last

He didn’t know how much more of this he could take. But he would try. He was expending all of his energy, all of what was left to hold on a little longer. It was so hard not to just give up.

There’ll be beauty from pain

If they could get him out of this, then maybe, maybe he could study it and make something of it.

Thought it won’t be today

It would take time, he could tell that much. But it was worth it if he could just get out of this infernal prison that his body and mind had turned into!

Someday I’ll hope again

He didn’t think there was a cure. But his brothers thought there was, and his father though there was. He would keep on, just for them.

And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

He trusted them. If Leo said something would happen, then it would. All of them would make sure of that. Maybe they could find a way to bring him out of his pain, out of all this pain….

Here I am at the end of me

He wasn’t sure he could hold on for them much longer. He didn’t know where he was anymore. He almost didn’t know who he was anymore. It was too overwhelming

Trying to hold to what I can’t see

He knew there was something waiting for him, but he wasn’t sure what. It was….there was something…but what?

I forgot how to hope

This was all there was to existence, right? What else was there? Wasn’t this what he was?

This night’s been so long

Hadn’t he been this way forever? If there was something more, it was too far back.

I cling to your promise there will be a dawn

The only thing he could remember was a touch. A feeling, and he clung to that, trying to figure out where it came from.

After all this has passed

Something was happening. Something was invading him.

I still will remain

He started to remember more. Where that touch came from. His family. That part of him was starting to be revealed again.

After I’ve cried my last

After so much, after all the things he had tried, all the emotions he had worn out, after giving up, giving all he had…

There’ll be beauty from pain

It hurt. It hurt like mad! But it was changing. This pain, this pain was good.

Thought it won’t be today

It felt like an eternity of pain, it felt like it took forever…

Someday I’ll hope again

And the hope he had of being cured was restored. It was happening. He was back, and suddenly anything was possible again!

And there’ll be beauty from pain

That pain was the best kind of pain, restorative pain, and he, his mind, all of him was back. And surrounded by the family that had worked so hard to get him back.

You will bring beauty from my pain









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Link to “Beauty From Pain”— http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RprOLVGQkpo
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[innocent-rebel]

Wow! nice job RG! And may I say I'm really sorry it took me so long to read this? *smacks hand*

Anyways, I really liked the flow of the story. It seemed like a mix between prose and poetry. And where the song was interjected it really fit. Kinda like the flow of what was happening to Don from turning into a monster to being cured and in between was followed by the music at a very accurate pace. I liked how you described how he continued to hold on, but eventually he just couldn't remember hardly anything. And then after all that, how the pain he felt in the end was the good kind of pain. A restorative pain. I would never have thought of it like that. But Don must have hurt being cured just as he was transforming the first time, but like you said it was a good pain. Anyways I just wanted to let you know I really like this! GREAT JOB RG! Keep up the good work!
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[RealityBreakGirl]

Well, I'm sorry I took so long to get back to you! I should have gotten back to you earlier!

Aw.... Thanks! I am rather proud of this one, although I've barely gotten any feedback on it. I'm so glad the flow was good! You ever written something that just flowed as you wrote it? That's what this story did for me. It just...flowed. I loved writting it! And I'm glad you like it!

Yeah, I figured that if it hurt to be transformed, then it had to hurt to be turned back as well. As for the restorative pain, I figure it was like when someone breaks an arm, or something and it has to be set. It hurts like mad (or so I've heard) to have it set, but it has to be done to be healed. I figured that it would be similar to that.

Still, I'm glad you like it! Thanks, girl!
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